Thursday, October 22, 2009
I always know I’d have speak at the funeral, I never wanted to, it seemed so final like I couldn’t pretend he was coming back anymore, because even though I know he isn’t… the funeral is what really ends the tiny little senseless hope in the back of my brain.
I know what you all though, we were too young, I know, you told us that us often enough. We weren’t though, age doesn’t define how much you love someone, I am 23 in a mouth and I know with all of me that in 23 years I was happiest when I was with he. We were in love.
I look around the room now and I see all you older married people nodding, I know what you’re thinking; Yes, you’re thinking, I know what loves like, poor thing’ well if love is what you have all experienced it's not strong enough word. You all think love is liking someone, a lot, and knowing then well and being able to put up with them for more then 5 hours, well it’s a little bit more romantic then that, but that’s the general gist. That isn’t love, I know because I’ve experienced it and I can tell you its nothing like love. So because I really didn’t know what to talk about today I’ve decided to talk to you about what love is like.
Love is like the excitement of Christmas Day, when you’re a little kid and you can’t sleep from all the excitement, till you pass out around 1 am. Except it’s not only for one day, it lasts forever. Its like the rush of a million rollercoaster’s all at once, only you never have to get off, and it’s for free. Its like that breath of fresh air on one of those hot sticky nights, when you open your window and the whole night seems to almost rush into your lungs. Its like one of those winter night when it's raining and clod outside, and you know that you don’t have to do anything, you can just eat hot food and drink, or listen to music, without having to worry about anything. Its like that feeling when you try on a size 8, or when you’re having a really bad day, (You starts to cry) and you see him, and he smiles at you and you know… you know everything’ going to be fine.
It’s more then all of this all at one time.
So today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, jeez, it’s turned out wrong. I always used to watch those videos of the brides fainting at their weddings, and I’d think, that’ll never be me, when I get married I’m not going to be afraid, because ill know that the man I’m marrying will always make me happy. He would have too, I wouldn’t have fainted you know. I knew that he would always make me happy, and he always will, but just not in person.
I don’t now what havens like, but I think that I can guess…. If heaven is wonderful, it must be like love, and at least I know he’ happy.
No one wants to be in a place where they have to say goodbye to a loved one. But when you are put in those shoes its never easy. I want everyone who reads this to remember their loved one, and to spend good time with them because no one knows when the time comes and you're no longer a part of their lives or even yours.
Love & Be Loved The Secret of life!
Peace Out
